Saturday's Long Run

I can't say that today was easier than last week.

I think that even though I was tired last Sunday when I completed the 6.24 - I had run for the two days prior... it seemed more managable maybe? I'm not really sure...

Possibly being emotional about my Uncles passing and the past few days... the memories it all brings up... it's hard, every time one of my parents brothers or sisters dies... it just brings you *or me rather* right back. So I thought running would be a great way of getting it out today, but it just wasn't.

HOWEVER, I did it. The sense of accomplishment I felt, even though I was feeling really fatigued in my legs... and even though I cried probably 2 -3 times during the hour and 9 minutes it took me, I didn't stop... I didn't stop... I did not stop.

This running thing... maybe I'm seeing much like a love affair... you've got to put the work in... it's not always pretty... it's sometimes really much effort and a little painful.. .but man, it feels good and it's worth it...

I sit here and know I didn't cave in, that I could over come the crap of the days, and just stay strong. It's been years of caving in, and maybe finally I care enough about myself to really do something for ME.

Now I must go and take a nice hot bath... order some yummy food... and ease into the night....

I was lucky to get to stop by my parents grave today - I have to say, of course I'm a little sad when I go there, I just don't go often. The cemetery is quite beautiful... actually it's funny - there is a lake in the cemetery - and long before my parents passed, they used to go and sit on the bench and feed the ducks /geese in the lake.... they loved it there and always admired the grounds and the flowers... so I had to take a picture of their pretty gravestone we designed, with all the pink petals that have fallen off the cherry blossoms all over... they made a pink path to drive through the cemetery in.... if you have to go, I'd like a pink path for the road to my eternity... :)